Tineyfresh’s Blog

If you dont hurry up and let life know what you want.. life will sure as hell show you what you get..

“Liike IDK what to do when Jenn gets out of work..
We’ve done almost everything I wanted to do when I got here..”-kuuya RandyFACE. Even when I got here, right out of the airport, Jenn had plans for us. It was niice, right straight for Perry’s Cafe. Next pick up gremmy. Target for cleaning supplies. Than Pick up kuuya Bert from Lindbergh Field Air Port. Wal-Greens for pinkeye solution. El nuevo millenia for mexican food. To top the end of the day; the three of us stood around the counter in the kitchen, talking and eating. It was a very niice day for my First day back in SAN DIEGO.

Althroughout the week its been pretty sweet. I love waking up early doing things not just kicking it at home. Wednesday, I met up with an old friend from my high school life. Sea Port for the talk talk. Buca de Beppo for dinner. La Jolla Cove to top off the night, once again, it ended just right.

With new people or people that are grown, it makes me realize the person I was with, I shouldn’t have been “stuck.” And I know it was my decision, my attitude, and my selfish self trying to just do me. With family and my close circle of friends, I realize what I was doing and how I handled things. Talking to LOSERRFACE about how different and how much we choose other things now a days, definitely confirmed that.

In no way would I ever take those 2 yr and something months back. I love Lynnwood, Everett, Marysville, Oak Harbor, Seattle, Tacoma; WASHINGTON. Swear that place felt more like home than California has ever been; well since my high school life. I miss my family and esp. The Monster. Just thinking of her gives me hope for her happiness and commitment to whatever she can get her hands into or onto. I know what they say, the younger you are the more open you are to mistakes or chances.. And I believe that. Also, I believe that mistakes or the chances I have made, can help me choose a better place where I stand in my life.

Mom was right, me moving here, being surrounded by my siblings, friends and friends that understand how I am, I am happier than I was in Washington. And I know that doesn’t make sense, but its the fact that I’ve only been here for one week and now I’ve been busy. I can only imagine with school and a new job, just how much happier I’ll be once all that falls into place.

I can already see the change in me. With heart to hearts, one on one time and awkward silent moments that force me to realize just how selfish I was.. How now im in my own head, different. I want to say a little bit wiser, maybe a little mature. Haha idk. I just don’t want to fall in the same spot as I was when I was “stuck.” [Again that's "stuck" was me being selfish and not wanting to be grown, making grown mature decisions.]

LOSERRFACE; I don’t want us to get use to asking you or planning on dipping on our original plans just because we get to see each other. Honestly, I have to agree with kuuya Randyface, “that’s why im glad I’m here. And your hanging out with us. It distracts you and keeps your mind off of him.” Even tho its a nice feeling, nice thoughts I do think its sooner than I thought this would happen.

If anyone doesn’t get it by now, IM NOT INTO JUST DOING ME JUST YET. I WANT MY PRIORITIES AND MY CIRCLE TO BE WHAT I CONSTANTLY SURROUND MYSELF WITH. Its all about self reasurrance that I can do everything I want.

I miss you more than anything has ever had my heart or my mind thinking.. You are not a waste of energy. Just not for me. And im not shutting the door, by saying that’s that, but I want to do everything I deserve to do. Every happy memory. Crying crawl into the corner days. To my self. If I want them for me and not for anyone else.

off to a rocky start with just about anything and everyone in my new/old life.

tuesday; 070709, arrived in San Diego. i guess maybe because this is take 2 of starting a new, that this time it was a bit easier to get use to the flow and how things work. however, im not going to say that the emotion across my face is the exact emotion happening inside. i do miss WASHINGTON; oak harbor, mville, everett, lynnwood, monroe and burlington. im just trying to give SD a chance. i dont want to do through this regretting things and wishing i do more. so here it is, taking everything given to me and im just going to make it work out. no excusses.

..

monster

MA and BH4L

before the inner tubes. slides. teams.

BH4L. kuuya Bert. me.

Jaz. Lena. Gab.

my super PHRESH aunty Angie // aka Monsters' mommy

PURP. YURPLE. GRAPE

RATSS

lil papa and lena

FAMILY from all over come through. OH -Town. Burlington. Mville. Lwood. Monroe. Everett. San Diego. Virgina. Oceanside. Kuwait[sp.] we may come off as a huge mob but we are people who have feelings and have our own voices that we all want to be heard. there are times where some of us come off as sleepy. sicky. hyped. knarley. and even CRANKY; riight uncle james?! jkks. no matter what our moods are we still are family and understand for whatever the situation is we all go through it together. thats what we do, stick it out no matter who really has to deal with it on theyre own.
Wednesday. bert came through. Mariners vs. Padres. Thursday. Jaay came through. cookies. Seatac. store. Friday. Everett. Great Wolf Lodge. 4 rooms for 27 ppl. grandparents room was the spot to be. bfast in a double bed room. hella buddy up. water park. starbucks. BC Parlor. Saturday. drive home. food food. 56.24$ for Starbucks. 11ish pm games. lay clothes out for sunday. Sunday. OH -Town. grandparents house. buffet brunch. exchange. DANNY. change. photoshoot. Deception Pass. food food. tv. pictures. drive home. packed 87% of my room. but only 91% ready for SD.

the next week is going to be seriously a blink. i dont want to miss out on anything. but i know i will have to. “SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO MOVE ON AND JUST HOPE EVERYTHING IS WORTH IT. “

purple drank

BOTHELL. 3 prego ladies baby shower. cuute 114. hella funny night! BALLS TO THE WALL for directions. bABIES R US. starbuck’s. rain is rain. MAKIN’S for SUNDAE’S on a FRIDAY =D .

no joke duude

saw 17 Again.. really good movie. been eating papa john pizza nonstop, bc its soo good. oh gross so for since lent i hella calmed down on the soda and been tryna do just water or juices. well at the movies i totally downed a large CHERRY COKE by myself. tummy pain for the next 3 days. not so much fun. gawd!

HE’S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU.
060509 wathced that movie in mville with aunty and ma and cousins. pretty legit movie. makes you wanna  just see whats out there and not care what the one before thinks. for suure gonna put some of those rules to the test. “WHO’S THE RULE.. and WHO’S THE EXCEPTION.” love movies and stories where evrryone is connected to someone.. like 6 degrees?!

been strong about a lot of things. i just want to get my bfs’s all in one place and chill. but one doesnt get along with the other and some dont even know about eachother. how the funk is this evrr gonna work? FML

dat new new huur

 200509.
evrry year around spring break i cut my hair and thats the only time i cut it; once a year. but this year i skipped the tradition and went for grow this shit out until i know exactly what i want to do with it or until i get sick of it. wednesday aunty called and asked if id mind hanging with monster while she got her hair did.
PAROBE COLLEGE. is a beauty school. on the way to the hair place my aunty and i were talking about how they were going to style her hair. and i told her what i was looking for in my hair. well she as at the salon for a while and all of a sudden asked if i wanted to get my hair done. one of the girls at the school knew how to do the hair style ive been waiting and is about to graduated. so i said for suure, in return for haning with MONSTER, aunty paid for my did.
I LOVE MY HUUR!

new boyzhaha JERK is a ridicilous song. but it makes me laugh evrrytime i hear it. haha TURNT is also a good song. they kind of remind me of TCK.. only WHHHACK STATUS. like a twist of goodness. haha if that makes any sense at all.200509

mosnter is too cuute. i seriously am going to miss spending time with her. but it all comes at a cost; NO SCARAFICE NO VICTORY. so ive been battleing with myself; the good the bad of dipping to SD. i miss it dearly and the love, family and friends that is surrounded there. im determined to make the next step i do in life COUNT.

-enroll in sewing classes.
-stick at a job for more than 8 months.
-run more.. BUT EAT THE SAME!
-DO ME! ; all that makes me happy. to a level where no one can take what ive done in life away.

OH -TOWN WEEKEND.

230509. DIPPED TO OH -TOWN. FAMILY WEEKEND THAT WAS ONE SUCCESSFUL WEEKEND OF 09. AN IDEA THAT TURNED OUT TO BE THE MASTER PLAN. FOR MY GRANDMA’S BIRTHDAY THE FAMILY WAS TRYNA COME UP WITH THE BIDNEZ. SOMETHING NEW. SOMETHING WE HAVENT DONE YET. WE’LL MY IDEA WAS “PLANT PARTY.” AT FIRST I DIDNT THINK ITD BE A HIT. BUT IT TURNED OUT TO BE WHAT EVRRYONE TALKED ABOUT.
SATURDAY MORNING; MA AND I WAITED FOR THE CAKE TO ARRIVE, THAN WE DIPPED. DROVE LWOOD. EVERETT. MVILLE. ARLINGTON. DECEPTION PASS. OAK HARBOR. GRANDMA’S HOUSE. EVRRYONE STARTED TO ARRIVE. AT FIRST MA AUNTY ROSE UNCLE ZACH AND I WERE THE FIRST. SO WE WALKED IN.. GRANDMA NOTICED ME FIRST. THAN SAW AUNTY. AFTER SHE SAW US, MA AND I DIPPED TO HOMEDEPO. ORIGINAL PLAN.. SMALL PLANTS. WE DID BUT WE ENDED UP WITH A TREE. HAHA.
LONG STORY SHORT.
GRANDMA FOUND OUT THE FAMILY WAS THERE FOR HER BDAY, WHICH ISNT TIL TODAY. BUT WE ALL ATE AND THAN WE TOLD HER TO COME TO THE BACK YARD. WE SUNG HAPPY BDAY. AND THAN STARTED TO PLANT. SO MUCH FUN. AND THE YARD LOOKS AMAZING. AFTER PLANTING WE ATE DINNER. ATE CAKE. WATCHED TV. TALKED AND JUST DID FAMILY TIME.

ONE OF MY FAVORITE FAM DAYS.

250509.
ALKI BEACH, SEATTLE. LAID OUT. AND HAD FISH AND CHIPS. DELISH.

point edwards

the other day i went for a drive and came across point edwards. its this hill that leads, well i didnt drive all the way through it, but it basically over looks edmonds. where i took this picture you can see the edmonds ferry. it was a nice town and hella nice views. haha for suure. more these to come.

oak harbor

 drove to OH -TOWN sometime last week. visited grandparents. saw dj and ari. the  plan was to come through monday and wednesday but schedules keep clashing and events dont match up. i forget how in love i was with Oak Harbor. the town. the friends i made. the memories i have; because it was during a time in my life where all i had was myself and not my brother and sister to count on. i had to make OH -TOWN work for me. and as far as i can tell i did. MISSION ACCOMPLISHED. for those who dont know, OH -TOWN is equivilant to the whole BFS situation. minus the moving out and falling out of so much. also OH was nothing but good memories.

bESTY mARYANN

I apologize ive been MIA.
Been keeping busy, real busy. recently ive hung out with my best friend since OHHS, freshy year. we met half way which is Southcenter Mall. mad crazy drive but was worth the drive to see her. we  walked around the mall looking for work pants for her. ended up at the food court got Johnny Rockets and talked.
she told me someone asker her what makes her and i bestfriends; “we could talk non-stop for months. than just fall back and be MIA for weeks. and a random text would bring us back to each other. we just pick up where we left off. we’ve never really fought. and we were the junior girls who chilled with the senior crowd.” on top of maryann’s def of a bestfriend.. it never fails we always end up in the exact opposite or same style. we showed up in mirror image outfits. we both have sidekicks; not planned. everyone who’s met maryann says they can totally tell we’re bff. we talk the same. we dress alike. we have the attention span of 7th grader. we hold conversations that only the other one would understand.
we drove around got starbucks. ended up in kent. pictures and memories added. i miss her and this little visit made me realize i was the lucky one to have someone during high school who was just like me and didnt push me to deter from who i am.

lets see whats been going down..
wednesday i went to everett to chill with aunty and uncle and gabster in everett.  we talked about and it was good talks. turns out they’re selling their place for a bigger house for baby number 2.
yesterday i hung out in mville with some of the old old who i havent seen since early 08′. which brings us to today and tonight. [friday.]
got invited to amandas birthday dinner at cheesecake factory in seattle with some kids i knew and some kids i didnt know. i got called a 17 yr old like 5 times it was cuute and made me feel young. even tho i am young but you know younger than i really am. OH EM GEE! i also there was some drama that i honestly didnt think was gonna be there. it was seriously confirmed again why i dont chill with girls. they cant be trusted and they dont know how to keep theyre secret life away from ppl who know them. its real sad. sorry amanda your dinner was brought down by connie and tina. even tho one connie was only there for like 30 min. and tina was nvrr there to begin with.
haha BFS tried to bring someone into the mix but amanda and i caught him before he spilled the beans. well we waited for our party to arrive for like an hr. after like 3 times of rainer telling the server we’ve been here waiting.. the manager came through stepped in; “im really sorry for the wait.. i hope you all enjoy your night, because of our mistake appetizers will be free tonight. plz order what you like.” it was so good. ramsey is dumb. amanda is hilarious when she gets drinks for free. kriza is too cuute. randall and rainer are like trouble together. haha
after CF.. we jetted to DICK’S. grubbed on cheeseburgers and fries. crazy ppl in seattle just looking for a dime. ive nvrr seen so many coppers in one city as much as we saw tonight in seattle. im glad we didnt have lamers with us or we’d of been one of the unlucky ones to of gotten pulled over.

[receptionist.. temp to hire.
ive got to interview like everyone else whos interested. but if i make it i could be making the same pay for now. work mon-fri. 8-430. and id be learning and working in an enviroment that i can stand. answering phones. filing papers. computer work. greeting. is what ive been doing with every job so its all good with me.
-hoping for the best with this job, there might be a chance i’ll be staying in washington.
-tuesday. my ASVAB. for real this time.. ive got the papers and all the forms together in my bag.
-wednesday. BH4L’s 20th bday.  && work!